That could be a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong blog today ;-) holy cow (isn't that just an awesome expression??? so "farmer-like" , eh? haha. Just kidding. Sounds more like something from buddism, don't they believe that cows are holy? ;-)that's cool. good times good times)
It's not like I have something to talk about. I just feel like expressing some thoughts that been in my mind for a couple of days now...Whatever. What I wanna do is basically make a big talk about NOTHING :-) lol that's me. Hey I'm in a good mood today. Maybe I should get started on my speech here now ;-) and :-) stop ;-) making :-) all these :-) smileys ;-) Juli feels crazy today. Kinda happy-sad mixed up. lil homesick. maybe not. crazy.
It's friday today. we had exams this week, I'm happy it's over. Never wrote exams before, we don't do that in Germany. So it was kinda...new. and not exciting, no. whatever. The funny (well..not really ;-) no more smileys) thing is: everybody here is sick...so sitting in the library with 100 other kids is a rather funny experience when 98 of them are sick . Coughing, sneezing, making disgusting-cold-noises all over the place- we had a good laugh cause it got pretty loud when everybody couldn't hold back anymore. yup. So I spend the afternoons at home, trying to get better and yesterday I didn't go to school at all because I felt like crap (what a wonderful english word. C-R-A-P. Universal use: crappy day, oh crap, take that crap with you, feel like crap...very cool. Oh come on, I'm just a german girl making fun of funny english words. fun fun. haha. please don't take me too serious. Thanx.) I hate being sick and I hate staying at home all day. Because you have too much time to THINK. THINK about stuff you usually don't THINK about. not cool. Maybe it's just me, but too much THINKING drives me crazy. So I was actually happy to go back to school today.
And you know what? It was a nice day at school! All the girls got a heart attack when they saw I cut off my hair (I told you ;-) but they all said they like it. Gotta admit- made me feel pretty good ;-) I'm getting used to this short hair of mine . And I don't even regret cutting it off (yet) !!! Oh yeah. Even some guys noticed that my hair is about 10000000 feet shorter. That's special, eh? Guys NEVER notice stuff like that ;-) Haha I'm just kidding. StiIl like you guys. couldn't really care less about how other people think about me. But it was still a nice day. you know what I mean ;-) yeah well.
Maybe it's time to talk about some deeper, more meaningful stuff. The last couple of days I've been realizing it's about halftime here. Halftime of my stay in Canada. Just 5 months left and I'll be back in good ol' germany. weird. It's weird how you miss certain things. some food stuff (like real German bread). the mountains. my home-city. and of course people. Friends, Family...
even more confusing is how much I'll miss everything once I'm gone away from Canada. It'll be worse I think. Because I know I'll be back in Germany pretty soon, I can prepare and stuff. If I get homesick, I know I'll be back. But when I'm back in Germany...I'll get homesick for Canada. I just know it. And that makes me feel sad already. Isn't that just so "JULI" and stupid? worry too much...
I've been writing a bit more emails with my best friend Mira lately. She's in San Francisco as an exchange student right now. we've been great friends since grade 5. I always feel like without her, I'm not the Juli I usually am. She wrote in one of her last emails:" I actually don't know how I made it through all that here without my best friend. "
You know how sometimes one little sentence can make you cry and laugh and get that warm feeling inside at the same time??? I wish I could give her a hug right now. *hug* (just in case she read it). ;-) Mira's christmas present for me arrived today ;-) yup it's a lil late but i don't think mine got there yet ;-) Yeah.
She sent me 5 CDs (pretty cool songs!!! Oh Yeah!!) and a keyring (a little wooden surfboard ;-) and a big letter. It's definitely one of the best letters I ever got. Lots of stuff she writes about sounds like I could have written it ;-) we just think about the same stuff. Cause we're both kind of in the same situation...Yeah well, so that letter really made me feel good. Cause I know she still thinks about me. Cooooooool.
There's lots in my mind I can't figure out- about all that Germany-Canada-two worlds-which one do I wanna live in- miss friends-how will I ever get back to "normal" in Germany- aaah I'm so confused-thing. But right now I feel that strong connection I have with some of my friends. And that's gonna get me through all that (I think you call that "life") I'm sure.
Thank you God for Angels on earth
good night
JULI
thank you Mira
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3 comments:
hi juli,
you don't know me, and i don't know you. but i read this post and couldn't help but reply.
i live in altona, about three hours from wawanesa. last year we had an exchange student from germany. his name was tobi. over the course of the 10 months that he was here, him and me became good friends. then in july he had to leave and it was a very sad time. we still try to keep in touch, but its hard.
i realized that july that friends are quite possibly the most important things in the world. they pick you up when you're sad. they laugh with you when you're happy. they are just there for you. and its so good.
when i read that line of what your friend said to you i saw that you've been blessed greatly with a terrific friend. and i thought about when you guys get to see each other again and how great it will be for both of you. it made a smile come across my face.
when you leave canada, i'm sure it will be very hard to say goodbye. it was hard for me to say good bye to one friend. i can't imagine having to say goodbye to dozens :*(
anyways, i just wanted to let you know that i really enjoyed this post. it kind of reminded me of my friends in places where i don't see them often. maybe we'll talk again sometime juli, maybe not. either way, i wish you all the best for your remaining time in canada.
D
ps. where in germany do you live? i visited in 2001. i'd love to talk about it.
Hey D!!! thanx a lot for that nice commet. I'm from Munich, that's in the south of germany. where is tobi from??? yup it's a weird thing being here and havin to leave again and all that stuff. but I believe it makes me grow up and makes me stronger... well then, I'd really like to talk to you a bit more, just gimme your email adress that'd be great! love, JULI
hello juli
my address is thegrizzzzly@hotmail.com. add me if you want!
D
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